I'm not supposed to be upset that this woman is asking hypothetical questions to which I cannot fathom or will I ever hear your responses... All I have to go on is the facts of the past.. That the fact remains our relations began in the same hypothetical, "I just wanna know, what if..." type of way... The facts remain that you were fully committed to another and I still wormed my way just by quenching your mental thirst... Not that you didn't love the one who came before, though you didn't love the one who came after, yet still and all every time you returned to my bed... And it all started with the hypothetical, "what if..." questions... Intrigued you followed your minds desire, and it led us here.. to three years of what I am not to a year and a half of what I am now... So why am I not supposed to be paranoid at the possibility of persuasion... Especially knowing that you some what feel wronged for my actions which, to my understanding, were allowed? When we both know that if situations were reversed, this could not, would not continue... Yes you are promised to me, but for how long? If one knows of the disposability of their station, how can one feel secure when faced with obvious doubts... When there is another woman on the sideline cheering on your curiosity of greener pastures? And what's worse, probably entertaining the possibility of such an encounter? Cause if your willing to share someone, you're willing tempt someone away, and even worse act on that temptation should the opportunity arise... Not to say I don't trust you, I don't trust her... and as your wife I have every right not to until proven otherwise... Cause she and I aren't friends like that... Yes I know who she is but we weren't homies, she's never been to my home and vise versa... We ain't never broke no green in peace nor shared a laugh over drinks, not to say we couldn't have, just to say we never had.... If I'm not mistaken it's the same thing I said to you when you cheated on your girl with me... Funny how things come full circle... So if you want me to not trust you and grow more paranoid, then please continue on your path of actions but don't try to act like I'm not allowed to feel this way...
Acting Schmacting?....
12 years ago
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on the topic of trust...yes u had my full blessings...becoz wat else could i have given...i trust you enough to say she'll at least be honest....but were you really....who's to say....now am i throwing it back at you...no....recall you gave me permission to have 1 outside encounter...though you placed stipulations on it while i never did for yours...so on the topic of trust...do you really trust me....no.....so please let's not discuss trust when there really isn't a mutual level of trust....yes...we started through wat if's n wat could's and it lead us here....but throughout our entire affair i hav given you no reason not to trust me....so y not trust me now....ohh...but as u say....it's her u don't trust....we'll let me put it this way...you didn't worm shit...it was already over between me and liz....you knew that...the moment i slept wit her in ur house wit u there doelo....it was even more over wit her when she continued to count everything else as important rather than us.....it had very little to do with you....coz as memory served yes i returned to your bed...but never really stayed....i never graduated you to where u r now afterward.....another came before you...though like you she shared the same position one of only transition and entertainment.....i love you and you know as much if you want a reason to not trust me....don't use this one....coz in point of fact i didn't hav to say shit to you about it....and that would be reason to be concerned.....would i sleep wit T....yes....but realistically when would i find the time....i sleep or work every hour of the day....n you know me enough to say i will never put play over work....so please.....enough of your fake paranoia that is really unjustified.....wait till i actually fuck up or commit to doing something before you stretch out the paranoia outfit......
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